I wanna be a doormat

What do you do when you seem not to have what it takes to be the only thing you ever wanted to be? Can you learn? Do you fight? Is there a fast track route to 'the best'?

I'm not referring to becoming a rock star. I know that whatever you do in whatever industry, there are only so many who can shine the brightest. But what if you don't seem to have a spark, at all? What then - what powers you through the long cold night of the soul?

Some days I think, I would be happy doing a mediocre job, if I could just write the rest of the time. Like Kafka, working in a meaningless office job while he sculpted out tortuous masterpieces overnight. But I strive for meaning also. If I'm sitting at a desk every single day, I want it to make a difference in someone's life. Why exist if your existence doesn't improve the lives of others?

There are songs in my head so constantly I barely have time to write them down. In fact the only time I don't hear music in my head is when I am writing. But when I write, I listen to music, so does that count?

Well anyway, here is a soothing Friday video and song for you.

Watch "Beach House - Zebra (OFFICIAL VIDEO)" on YouTube

I want the moon on a stick

I realised yesterday that I cannot wait for fully integrated content on our media.

There was a time not so long ago when all posters were just that; now they are video screens and I'm sure if it wouldn't mess with peoples minds we would have sound blaring from them. I even saw one that was some kind of cooking infomercial, Commuters' Kitchen or some such kitsch.

I remember thinking that these 'live' posters were inevitable, before they were suddenly everywhere, like Harry Potter come true. The next step is obviously living magazines and print media. Interactive books are a big thing for kids, as they always have been really, except that previously your interaction was a fuzzy piece of felt and not a touch screen.

What I'm looking forward to is the magazines. Obviously blogs have this mixed media aspect already, but I really want to have a magazine on my ereader with the experiences embedded. You are reading a review - it plays the song in question to you. Tired eyes? Just listen to the article instead. Maybe this is a lot to ask of free print mags. All I do know is that reading a review the other day made me want to hear the music, immediately. This must be the next step: or something like it.